dead horse

tattoo by zach nelligan

so i recently noticed i create dead horses in my life, it's impossible to avoid, i get in a strut and i ride it until it's dead, even though my happiness is jeopardized. i never learn or benefit from straddling the beast, i just continue to ride, till it's dead... This happens in all aspects of my life; jobs, relationships with woman, and even in mindless things such as what i choose to eat. at this very moment i'm straddling a dead horse (my job), i hate it, but it's comfortable, it pays the bills, i even work from home, but my happiness is jeopardized. i hate it so much i even sing little jingles on how much i hate it, is this normal ?? do all people do this ? i love to bitch, my job isn't hard, not threatening, it's just sucking my soul. at times i feel like a douche thinking about my unhappiness, while so many are unfortunate and wishing to be in the same position, but fuck em, this is my dead horse and i need to dismount.

david byrne Lead Us Not Into Temptatio soundtrack

it's moody and it's dark in many places, and bizarrely upbeat in others. the song speechless is incredible
http://www.mediafire.com/?pmqf58uxqw7

tear jerks chances are 7"

asa osborne from lungfish playing lofi avantgarde type of stuff,
http://www.mediafire.com/?wmy6nto2bh1

the strange boys- isn't it pretty to think so 7 "

r&b garage, this is by far one of the better bands coming out of austin right now
http://www.mediafire.com/?f4hwemowbsr

fennesz-transition 7 inch

ambient type stuff, i love working to this stuff.
http://www.mediafire.com/?qegwq5wdpuw

steven jesse bernstein - prison

weird poetry read over jazzy ambient music. bernstein committed suicide by stabbing himself in the throat three times with a knife.
http://www.mediafire.com/?z2uegjttspc

arab strap- mad for sadness (live)

scots talking about fucking over mellow instrumental like music.
http://www.mediafire.com/?yetd0lxtv7f